My way on the highway

Never in my life have I thought it's cool to be drunk. There is always such a hue and cry being made about being cool by partying. Today we had the annual GSA wine tasting party. IT was a classy event. There were a fine selection of red and white wines and also a jazz quartet. Unfortunately, I got stuck with a bunch of people who's only aim in life was getting drunk on wine:) IT was funny upto a point. After that it was simply chaotic. Everyone was suddenly talkative. To top all of this, I was incharge of getting nine drunk people home. Never have I been so stressed in my life before. I thought I would get high blood pressure. Now in hindsight it is funny. I mean all those people were acting wonky. I over reacted before but now it is fine. I guess people want to loosen up. However, I don't think I would ever do that to myself. Never!

School is finishing up and generally emotions are running high. There are a lot of things to do. ON top of all this I have been wondering about the human psyche. The words that come to my mind is the "power game". Some people want to always be at the higher end of the equation. Well it's not possible always. I mean the people who generally make the effort to always keep in touch also loose out sometimes. I mean they're also tired. How many times can they alone keep it going? How much of work all these things are! Is ego everything in life? Or is this some sort of message that others have to read. A really close friend of mine is going thru a rough patch now because she was at the lower end of the equation. I always told her it was fine and you do not have to go by book. She was fed up of the mind games and the moves she had to play. It was like constant game of chess. My sister often gets into these introspective moods and I used to blame her then for over analyzing.

Today was the cylab poster presentation. It went off really well. Cylab works in close contact with the department of defense and homeland security. So there were people from there and company sponsors. It was nice to explain our project to boeing and JP morgan chase. They were pretty excited about it. I guess it made also confident about my product. I think it has a lot of potentital. It was also a proud moment for me to be amongst such great people. It also increased my own confidence. I mean I can hold my own against a lot of these guys. I also found some commendable work being done with eclipse plugin development at the conference. I wish I could do more of that at my work place. But I'm not sure if western geco does that. I did get an offer from another company too. It does seem so surreal now. I hope I'm not suddenly struck by some lightning:) As my saying goes "when it rains it pours and when it doesn't rain it doesn't pour!". Amma and Dad will be prou

When will it stop? I'm always irked by it. I wish I could forget but alas that never happens. I think people who think too much are plagued by it but also there are so many loose ends to tie up and the fear of the unknown. There is a mixed feeling of excitement and anticipation. God know what will happen! God knows...oohhhh I wanna break free. I had a wonderful two days at chicago. It was good to bond with friends from undergrad. They'll always be the best. It was nice to see two people so much in love. I mean not in the lovey dovey sense, just living together as two beings. Nice I really liked it. I mean I always felt that was something that would be so distant. To see it happening to my friend made me suddenly feel all grown up:) Does one really require company in life? I don't know. I think it's nice to have someone in your life but one also needs to be ready to make that kind of commitment. I guess not everything is rosy but hey when was life like that:) Suddenly a

As Mahesh Bhupathi said, "When the chips are down you can't trust anyone better than Paes to do the job for India in Davis Cup". So we beat Pakistan and Paes proved that killer instict and confidence can get you thru a game. Good Job Paes! So there is a fair amount of effort being spent these days on counselling friends who have got hurt by their stupid boyfriends. This is to all those women who get hurt by those mean men! If you want to give them the message then there is no better way than quoting the following lines from Alanis Morissette. "And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know" If he bugs you too much you can say "I never really loved you anyway":) And girls say this to yourselves "I will survive"!

I remember this being the favourite piece in "The hindu". I always wanted to share this excitement with my family and would get scoffed at for getting excited over that in the newspaper. Anyway I suddenly thought of that after reading bbc.com. Today is the April 8th. ON this day in 1994 curt kobain died. It was quite shocking for the grunge community. I felt a personal loss because my "grunge" cousins were so hurt on this day. I never understood why they were sad but I felt sad too. Maybe because they kept repeating "little girls" won't understand. Anyway he adds on to the list of artists who died young! In other news, Paes and Bhupathi helped in putting India in a better position by winning the doubles at the Davis cup. I am unsure about the reverse singles though. I never liked the way Paes handles singles. He is too much of a doubles player to play singles. I think he has lost his nimbleness and whenever I used to watch him at the Goldflake open an

"Almost heaven, west virginia Blue ridge mountains, shenandoah river Life is old there, older than the trees Younger than the mountains, blowing like a breeze Country roads, take me home To the place, I be-long West virginia, mountain momma Take me home, country roads" Yep I visited John Denver's west virginia over the weekend. I understood the mood behind the song. It's really beautiful and had a typical country setting. After hiking through the dense forests of cannon valley, I sat at one place in the middle of the forest. I just observed the trees and the mountains. It was calming. I never thought I was a nature person but the surroundings probably does that to people. It's a must visit place. I really had a blast. Of course I did a lot of other "city" like activities like swimming, sauna, playing pool and partying:) Phew a hectic weekend! I need another weekend just to unwind.