Bungle in The Jungle!

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I find it increasingly difficult to blog about my life. I don't know why maybe because whatever said and done this is a public blog and people seem to quote from it. So I've been seriously having doubts whether I want to blog anymore. It was nice initially but as I move into a new phase in life, I feel like I would like to open up more but people talk of spies and all that jazz. Woes of people losing their jobs because of blogging. So call me chicken or whatever but I'm going to be more careful and therefore curb the freedom to blurt out. Work is going on well. However I seem to already have some minor conflicts or difference of opinions with some people. They are unwilling to take me seriously because of me being fresh out of college and most people here have tons of experience. Anyway it's going to be a great learning experience. As the days pass I feel that I'm learning more about people. I am dying to write about it but unfortunately I'm sure atleast one of them is probably watching this space.
The one thing i've learned is that most people having huge egoes and I have this tendency to force people to align with my views. When that does not happen, I get hurt. It's almost obsessive. I just want to woo the person till he agrees. Unfortunately it does not work out so I get really upset. That is probably one thing that I need to change about me.
I wish I could predict the future and see how I would look maybe 5 years down the line. Will I be stable? Will I be mentoring someone who's like a babe in the woods? Will I be married? Will the person at the altar be someone I really care about? Will I have children? Will I be back in India?
Phew....till that time I guess I should close with lines of the song that I'm freaking out on now...
Let's bungle in the jungle --- well, that's all right by me.
I'm a tiger when I want love,
but I'm a snake if we disagree!

Comments

ESIH said…
ooooooooo..tigress!! loads of conotation for that now..:)
and dont worry too much wht the future holds, it never is wht you plan it to be anyways, so dont bother, just live life as it comes...you will enjoy and learn more and as for ppl treating you as fresh, well show them what you are with your ideas and work, they will comply on their own, and you will know you have achieved what you wanted..:)
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